Tired...

I'm tired of feeling like the only one that cares, the only one that tries and the only one in this. I can't make a marriage work alone. I feel like I'm the only one putting the time in. Doesn't seem very fair, and if I mention it, it's immediatly turned around on me somehow. Feels like I can't win sometimes. I thought I was at a done point not too long ago, but it felt like that passed. Now, I'm not so sure. I just feel like old habits just keep creaping back in. It raises my insecurities, but then I feel like I can't mention it because I don't want to throw things in his face. I think I'm the only one holding my tounge though. Maybe I shouldn't, but I don't want to see that look of hurt.